Ok how do you guess cope with your friends. Mine are really worried about them which is sweet, but i need to get them off my back. How do you cope? I am finding it impossiable because i don't want to tell them, cos they jst wont understand.
8) university entry
and that is just the start. What am i going to do?
OK today hasn't been good. Got in trouble wid skl for missing c/w deadlines. Then what i considered my best friend blanked me all day! She was like well your now my "INVISABLE FRIEND!" and i was like well danks a lot.
So i'm in shit wid
4) my group of friends
basically i have lot everything. so down and to make everything worse i don't even have the self control to fast propablly. Why is my life so ****ed! Cut myself today! I don't know why cos i don't feel any better for it.
Need the old heather back but just lost
I am going to fast til wednessday i am so determinded, Just have to make sure that i don't get found out. Any good sayings? I have used all fo the "NOT HUNGRY", "NOT FEELING WELL", "ALREADY EATEN" and would love some inspiration.
Ate loads today because i had to do loads of work and i new that i didn't get any done if i didn't eat. But then instead of purging like i should of i just self harmed which isn't exactly good.
Everyone is really concerned about me but it's just making everything worse. I don't care, don't think and now don't understand what is being said.
i'm realy worried what the doctor is going to say and that is v only reason why i am eating again. Please help, don't know what i would do widout every1. No-one else understands.
I have to go to the doctor's tomoro mind. Slightly worried about wat they're going to say!!!!!!!! What is the worst that will happen? I am lost in a heather bubble and although am being sucessful am not really living. Has anyway gone through this? I would love some suport.
- Current Mood: confused
Sent me to the doctors which i managed to blagg out of in the sense that i got some stupid sleeping tablets and said i lost my appeitite from not sleeping. But everything is getting to hard for me. Body also is fighting back and i even had a CHOCLATE FINGER today! (being forced my teachers) but even so. Lost all will power which i had so much to have.
Need to pull myself together. Today was the first time in abou 2 years that i self harmed!What have i got back into!
Can't believe the dat i've had. My plan for tomoro is to fast but if my parents are going to be home 2nite i might go home really early like 4 oclock and then cook something like veg again. this would mean that i keep parents happy, i eat really early so hopefully i can digest quick and then also i can go to the gym in the evening and burn every off and more in the late evening!
Any tips would be amaxing! Oh yer i have a question where can you get diet pills from? I really need some but i don't have a clue where to get them. Maybe i could get them offline?
Hope everyone is doing good!
- Current Location:Bedroom: reflecting on the day
- Current Mood: content
Can't believe how alone and down i feel. Everything has gone wrong1.
I had such a lush day yesterday cos i went out of town shopping but then got home to the worse new ever! so was up all last nite crying and purging which i never do. don't know why i have turned so bad. Wish i could talk to some1 about this, as i need serious help. I'm on day 7 of my fast and i don't know how much longer i can last. Skin has gone horriable and am SO SO SO cold all of the time no matter what i ware. Don't feel like i am loosing weight though.